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Oversleeping: Simple Accident or Depression?!?


I HATE oversleeping. But in the moment I’m lost in a dreamland that is tucked away too far from reality to care. I’d say I’m about 70% productive right now. I’m going to work, but a lot of the time it’s late and sometimes I don’t come in until 1 or 2 if I oversleep. It’s hard because I’ll have a day where I’m 90% of my normal productivity and then the next day WHAM!, the train of exhaustion and oversleeping comes out of nowhere.

What has been happening to me sporadically has been an “accident” of sorts. I wake up in the morning (feeling like P. Diddy) to my alarm and I’m still zonked out from the Seroquel. So I’m sorta like a zombie and don’t have any normal brain function yet and get back in my bed. I am a very heavy sleeper and I have really deep dreams. So soon enough I’m sucked back into a really intense, far-away dream. This cycle continues until my zombie hand turns off the alarm on accident instead of snoozing. Then I come out of a really deep sleep to my clock that says 1:00pm. Fuck.

Then the guilt hits. I’m so irresponsible. How could I let this happen again??? I try to defend myself by claiming depression, but I’m not sad. There’s just a complete lack of motivation. Last night I even got myself psyched up for work (I’ve been busy and loving it), but the motivation does not carry through in the morning. It’s like there’s a plastic bubble around my head, keeping me from thinking rationally and it takes several times of the alarm clock going off/housemates waking me up to burst. Then I can think clearly enough to be motivated. Otherwise, I’m lost.

Is it just an accident or laziness??? I can’t tell! I want to accept it as depression because I can be really hard on myself otherwise and because I really can’t just try harder. I’m like a zombie that can’t be reasoned with. I don’t know what to do.

Let me know what you think!


POW! Fighting Back Against Morning Drowsiness

I’m tired of being tired. My most tangible “symptom” from the outside has been oversleeping and missing work in the mornings (I have mentioned this before, but my supervisor is very supportive about this as long as I keep her updated). On top of this long-standing problem, I have been on Seroquel for about a week now. One of the symptoms is drowsiness….great just what I needed! I’m not okay with not participating in the world like I should be anymore (not that I was okay with it before, but now I’ve had it).


1. A New Alarm Clock: One of those super obnoxious ones that starts pretty quiet then gets REALLY loud, and is plugged in across the room from my bed.  If I time it right with my cell phone alarm, they alternate which means I have to get out of bed twice if I snooze. Also…it has radio. So if I turn that on instead of snoozing then I’m awake.

2. A SAD Lamp: I don’t think I get enough sunlight in the mornings to wake me up and then I sit in an office all day.  I ordered it last week so it should arrive pretty soon. I’ll let you know how that goes.

3. Getting Rid of the Eye Mask: Yes….I am one of those people who sleep with an eye mask (and earplugs). This usually helps me get a good nights sleep without waking up when a car alarm goes off in our neighbor’s driveway. BUT since my problem is not insomnia/inability to sleep I need to lose it.

This morning my master plan worked. But we also have people in town visiting, so that makes it more exciting/worthwhile to get up in the first place.

We shall see.